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The Rewind: XXXTentacion, Everything Is Love, Luke Cage & More

This week on The Rewind with Xilla Valentine and Janee Bolden we are joined by comedian Mike Brown. Not that Mike Brown, Not that Mike Brown either. The other Mike Brown. On this episode I will pitch my list of what I think are the 5 things you need to be checking out and my co-host Janee will challenge the picks with what she things should be on the list. Our special guest Mike Brown will help us decide which one is better. We debate Jurassic World Fallen Kingdom, Season 2 of Luke Cage, the trailer for Creed 2, Everything Is Love from The Carters and XXXTentacion’s music jumping %700,000 after his untimely death. Watch the video above and be sure to keep checking us out every week on The Rewind.

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Microbiologist Is Convinced ‘Immortal’ Lobsters Made A Deal With The Devil

Source: Monalyn Gracia/Corbis/VCG / Getty Microbiologist @junius_64 hit Twitter with her expertise on why lobsters don’t die of old age, but instead die as victims of their own unfortunate genetics. Get into her fascinating theory below. [bong rip] [exhale] lobsters made a deal with the devil for conditional immortality and it backfired on them. you cannot change my mind — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 all of Twitter: “would you care to elaborate on that” me: pic.twitter.com/qxmmTLVzrR — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 ok so basically lobsters do not die of old age. the only thing time does to a lobster is make it bigger and bigger, if environmental conditions are good this is because they have a secret molecular trick over all of us senescent rubes: constant production of telomerase — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 this Grade-A Big Boy is massive- 22 lbs, easily 50 years old. but it isn’t even as big as the largest lobster ever caught, in 1977- 44 lbs, estimated at 140 years old pic.twitter.com/Z2dGVuAtdn — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 Telomeres are like shoelace caps on the ends of your chromosomes- a buffer zone, codes for nothing, keeps it from unwraveling look, here’s yours, the little white spots on these human chromosomes how do these things relate to our inevitable decline into death? here’s the deal pic.twitter.com/sD9yvIIHZV — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 It’s one sequence, over and over, for humans: TTAGGG every time your cells divide, they lose a little bit off the end of the telomeres, which fails to be replicated. At birth your telomeres are 11,000 bases long, when you’re old and gray they’re about 4,000 bases long — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 There’s something called the Hayflick limit, and that’s why you and I die When the telomeres reach a critical length, the cells just stop dividing pic.twitter.com/4HAUULd0fN — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 “fuck the Hayflick limit, I do what I want” is the motto of cancer, and the motto of lobsters because they produce heaps of telomerase. telomerase is a really nifty enzyme, it carries its own RNA template to build back the lost ends of the telomeres! pic.twitter.com/gWuIuM6jcZ — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 Humans make telomerase too. But we make less and less as we age. We’re coded to just let senescence and death happen, and a lot of people have a lot of theories why If you’ve got cells that constantly produce shitloads of telomerase and never stop, you’ve got cancer, my friend — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 as a teen I used to like Family Guy (dunk on me, I deserve it lmao) and what’s funny is, in that one episode when high-Stewie asked “what if the only reason we die is because we accept it as an inevitability”, he was kinda right our biology encodes death as an inevitability — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 Death is still an inevitability though, whether our biology encodes a plan for it or not entropy always comes for its due, and that’s what even lobsters must accept — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 lobsters still lose in the very end. Telomerase tricks buy time, they will never experience senescence- the decline towards death- but it still comes at some point that point is typically molting — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 Lobsters never age. they keep growing and growing and growing. but their skeleton is on the outside, and it isn’t exactly flexible. They need to molt and grow a new shell once they outgrow the old one this is a very, very energetically taxing and dangerous affair — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 Lobsters molt the easiest in mid-life. molting casualties are highest in the very young and the very old very young lobsters molt a LOT, because they’re growing a lot- 44 molts in their first year. this leaves them squishy and vulnerable, and is quite energetically taxing — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 An ancient lobster colossus may not have as many predator concerns during a molt, compared to the young’uns (still watch out for sea turtles tho) but the energy costs are what kills. Moving out of an enormous shell takes an enormous effort past a certain point they just can’t — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 at a certain point, the effort of moving out just cannot be mustered by their metabolism. it’s done. when a mega-lobster entirely stops molting, the game is drawing to a close at that point they’re trapped in their shells, which accumulate parasites and bacteria — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 I have not been able to find research on whether it’s disease or simply being squeezed in that kills in the end. I would love to talk to an actual invertebrate biologist on this stuff because it’s so fascinating — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 This research would be incredibly hard to accomplish because you would have to either raise or track a good sample size of 100-200 year old lobsters, which are extremely rare — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 I’ve also heard that some will simply die of exhaustion mid-molt, but lack the data on the relative proportions of all these fates — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 but yeah. it’s quite amusing, if silly and unscientific, to think of it in a poetic sense. It’s like lobsters have made a deal with the devil, and the devil always gets his due — labcoat lesbian @ NYC Pride + AC (@JUNIUS_64) June 21, 2018 Hit the flip for a short Q&A session.

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Bill Cosby Fires His Entire Legal Team; What’s His Game?

As we all know, Bill Cosby is super guilty . By which we mean that he was found guilty by a jury of his peers for multiple counts in the 2004 sexual assault against Andrea Constand. He is due to be sentenced in three months … but he has fired his entire high-profile legal team. What is he thinking? Bill Cosby still has three months to go before he is sentenced for all three counts of aggrivated indecent assault of Andrea Constand. He remains under house arrest until that time. It is quite the surprise to learn that he has dismissed his press-friendly attorney, Tom Mesereau, whom he brought on board to defend him in 2017. Mesereau is famous for having defended Michael Jackson, but his courtroom strategy wasn’t enough to hoodwink the jury. Perhaps Cosby is unwilling to continue paying the man who failed to get him an acquittal. Cosby isn’t going to represent himself at his two-day sentencing hearing, which is scheduled for September 24-25. He has instead hired Pennsylvania attorney Joseph P. Green Jr. to fulfill that role. Green is an established lawyer, but not nearly as high-profile as Cosby’s previous representation. It may be that Cosby simply wants an attorney but is no longer willing to shell out big bucks for high priced representation for another three months — not if he doesn’t believe that it will change anything at his sentencing. Some have wondered if he may be hoping that, by acquiring a new attorney, the date of his sentencing hearing might be pushed back. Cosby is 80 years old, and will be 81 after his July 12 birthday. Some wonder if, comfortable while under house arrest, he is pushing to delay his incarceration as long as possible. As we said, some find this move surprising, but it is actually consistent with Cosby’s recent history with attorneys. In July of 2017, Cosby’s jury deadlocked the first time around. After that mistrial was declared , Cosby fired his attorneys Brian McMonagle and Angela Agrusa in order to hire Mesereau. As a result, his new trial date was pushed back from the autumn of 2017 to the spring of 2018. The #MeToo movement began later in 2017, making millions of people more aware that yes, sometimes the people who seem nice on camera are actually sex monsters who’ve gotten away with it all for years. In fact, potential jurors had months to soak in story after story about famous, seemingly charming men who terrorized women and used their wealth and influence to cover it up. In light of that, many wonder if Cosby wishes that his second trial had been much, much earlier. But this new shift in his legal representation might might that he ends up pushing his sentencing another few months. Perhaps all of the way to 2019. It is difficult to tell if this is part of a legal strategy, though. McMonagle and Agrusa themselves had replaced his previous attorney, Marty Singer, in 2015. Maybe Cosby is just being grouchy or quickly grows dissatisfied with his attorneys. It is very difficult to tell what exactly is going on in that man’s mind right now. Aside from, one assumes, fear. Some rumors suggest that Cosby may need another attorney for a very different courtroom in the near future. Is Camille Cosby planning to divorce him? In public, his wife says that his conviction was “mob justice” and somehow the fault of racism. 12 jurors of his peers doesn’t sound much like “mob justice” to us. And if racism was at play behind that guilty verdict, then why didn’t the jury in 2017 convict? But if she is privately planning to leave him, he could find himself facing off in two court battles at the same time. Would he retain a divorce attorney for any longer than he holds onto defense attorneys? Who knows, with that guy. View Slideshow: Bill Cosby Sex Scandal: What Led to His Arrest

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Tristan Thompson: Still Banging Mistresses Behind Khloe’s Back?!

It’s been two months since Tristan Thompson was caught cheating on Khloe Kardashian , but remarkably, he has yet to be kicked to the curb. Yes, by all accounts, Tristan and Khloe have really committed themselves to making this relationship work — or at least Khloe has, anyway. According to a new report from Radar Online, Tristan hasn’t learned his lesson about sleeping around behind Khloe’s back. And it seems there’s one mistress in particular that Thompson just can’t get off his mind. Tristan allegedly hooked up with Lani Blair while he was in D.C. with the Cleveland Cavs. We know that Thompson has been in contact with Blair recently, but we assumed he was smart enough to at least keep the relationship platonic. Turns out, we were wrong. “Tristan’s so sneaky,” says one insider . “He wants Khloe to have a break from motherhood and go back to LA for a week or two to be with her family. He’s telling her she deserves some girl time with her sisters, cocktails in the sun and the warm LA weather.” First of all — warm LA weather?! C’mon, source! Last we checked, it’s June everywhere, and Lake Erie isn’t north of the Wall! Anyway, what really matters here is not the insider’s knowledge of meteorology, but their claims about Tristan’s ulterior motives: “The truth is, Tristan wants some time away from Khloe so he can be with Lani,” the informant says. “He told Khloe he’ll take care of all her expenses and take care of baby True in Cleveland and wants to put Khloe on the next private jet to L.A.” Yes, apparently Tristan still has “serious feelings” for Blair, and he just doesn’t know how to quit his stripper side-piece. “He misses those fun times and Lani makes him feels so good. He wants that type of comfort right now, especially since he just lost the finals,” the insider claims. “He’s not ready or in the mood to deal with Khloe, hear her run her mouth or work on their relationship just yet.” Oh, man. Hopefully, he doesn’t use the phrase “run her mouth” within earshot of Khloe. We’re pretty if you talk about a woman in those terms just weeks after you cheated on her while she was pregnant with your baby, she’s legally allowed to murder you. Tristan’s on the thinnest ice known to man, and dude just tried on a pair of concrete boots. View Slideshow: Khloe Kardashian: Why She SHOULD Leave Tristan Thompson, But Never Will

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The Bachelor & The Bachelorette Cast: Their Hottest Swimsuit Photos Ever!

The Bachelor and The Bachelorette do not lack for gorgeous women, and they do not lack for confidence when it comes to their looks. Don't believe us? Take a look at some of their most tantalizing, beauitful swimwear photos. You're welcome, basically. 1. JoJo Fletcher in Black and White The Bachelorette leading lady of 2016, JoJo Fletcher, looks amazing in this halter top. Unfortunately, Jordan Rodgers also appears in this photo. Win some, lose some. 2. Desiree in a Bikini With photos like this, Desiree Hartsock will stop your heart. Or traffic. Chris Siegfried is a lucky man. Also, can you believe they are actually still together?! They’re one of a select few couples from the series that has actually made this work! 3. The (Michelle) Money Shot The aptly-named Michelle Money was gold for the franchise. As one of the most attractive women ever to appear on it, she defied convention by becoming more likable with every appearance on The Bachelor’s many summer spinoffs. That’s hard to pull off. 4. Kaitlyn Bristowe in a Pink Bikini Kaitlyn Bristowe looks gorgeous in this bikini, though she usually prefers one-pieces. She and fiance Shawn Booth still haven’t set the date yet, but she has frozen her eggs — with the help of fertility nurse Whitney Bischoff, to whom she lost in Season 19. Wild. 5. That’s So Raven (Gates) Raven Gates may have made waves with her revelation that she’d never had an orgasm, but she’s still happily dating Adam Gottschalk after the two met on Season 4 of Bachelor in Paradise. Maybe he’s doing something right. 6. Rachel Lindsay in a Black Top Rachel Lindsay was the franchise’s first-ever black Bachelorette, and she is as gorgeous as she is smart. Some question her wisdom, after she dumped Peter Kraus for Bryan Abasolo, but no one questions her smarts or hotness. View Slideshow

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Jersey Shore Halts Filming In Vegas Due to Ronnie Magro-Jen Harley Drama

Oh, that Rahn. Will he ever stahp? That’s likely the question on the mind of Ronnie Ortiz-Magro’s castmates today, as the Jersey Shore crew was forced to stop filming ahead of schedule due to ongoing drama between Ronnie and his baby mama, Jen Harley. Until yesterday, the cast was in Las Vegas filming a second season of Jersey Shore Family Vacation . The title isn’t terribly apt in Magro’s case, as Vegas is his home turf these days. So it was a bad choice of locale for reasons that go beyond the irony of filming a show with “Shore” in the title in the middle of a landlocked state. You see, if you’ve been watching the current season of JSFV, you know that Ron and Jen’s relationship isn’t the greatest. During his time in South Beach, Ronnie cheated on Jen with a French woman who was unimaginatively dubbed “French Fry.” But that was only the beginning of their problems. Shortly after that episode aired,  Ronnie accused Jen of cheating on him , in a wild Instagram rant in which he also called her a “c-m dumpster.” In the weeks since, Harley and Ortiz-Magro broke up and got back together several times, so it should’ve come as no surprise to Shore producers when their relationship drama dominated the first few days of filming in Vegas. Maybe that was the plan. Maybe the plan backfired. Whatever the case, the plan was scrapped when — to use the parlance of Shore’s current season — Ron spiraled  and quickly spun out of control. Last week, Magro got in a fight with another guest at a Vegas hotel. Just days later, MTV pulled the plug on filming in Vegas and sent the cast back to the Garden State. “They cannot wait to get the hell out of the desert and be away from everything surrounding Ronnie and Jen,” a source close to production tells Radar Online. The situation had apparently gotten so bad that the cast was considering holding an intervention in response to Ron’s self-destructive behavior. “They are all adults now, and they cannot watch Ronnie destroy his life anymore,” says the insider. Hey, the guy’s been fun to watch this season, but he’s a 32-year-old dad now.  Maybe he should cool it on the Ron-Ron juice for a bit. View Slideshow: Ronnie Ortiz-Magro: Demanding Paternity Test from Jen Harley?

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Ball Isn’t Life: Kevin Durant Already Contemplating Retirement After Back To Back Championships

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Source: Jason Miller / Getty Kevin Durant Says He Can See Himself Retiring from Basketball at 35 Even though he won his second Finals MVP last week, Warriors star Kevin Durant told ESPN on Monday that he could see himself retiring from the game of basketball at age 35, about five years from now. “This game, your craft, you have to continue studying it,” said Durant. “No matter how much you enjoy it, nobody wants to be in school that long. I know I don’t. At some point, you have to be ready to graduate. Thirty-five, that’s just a number in my mind.” “I heard him say that, but I’ll believe it when it happens,” says Rich Kleiman, his business partner. Durant currently has 20,913 career points and is on pace to challenge Kareem Abdul-Jabbar’s all time regular season scoring record of 38,387. However, Durant claims that the record is not on his mind. “Because it’s not about the record,” Durant said Friday. “I can leave the game knowing I did everything I wanted to do, my way, on my terms. That’s how I want to leave the game. And if I happen to have all these accolades and these accomplishments, then that’s cool. If not, I’m still cool.”  

Ball Isn’t Life: Kevin Durant Already Contemplating Retirement After Back To Back Championships

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Source: Jason Miller / Getty Kevin Durant Says He Can See Himself Retiring from Basketball at 35 Even though he won his second Finals MVP last week, Warriors star Kevin Durant told ESPN on Monday that he could see himself retiring from the game of basketball at age 35, about five years from now. “This game, your craft, you have to continue studying it,” said Durant. “No matter how much you enjoy it, nobody wants to be in school that long. I know I don’t. At some point, you have to be ready to graduate. Thirty-five, that’s just a number in my mind.” “I heard him say that, but I’ll believe it when it happens,” says Rich Kleiman, his business partner. Durant currently has 20,913 career points and is on pace to challenge Kareem Abdul-Jabbar’s all time regular season scoring record of 38,387. However, Durant claims that the record is not on his mind. “Because it’s not about the record,” Durant said Friday. “I can leave the game knowing I did everything I wanted to do, my way, on my terms. That’s how I want to leave the game. And if I happen to have all these accolades and these accomplishments, then that’s cool. If not, I’m still cool.”  

Ball Isn’t Life: Kevin Durant Already Contemplating Retirement After Back To Back Championships

Jim Bob Duggar: Using Money to Control His Family?

We all know that Jim Bob Duggar likes to maintain control of his massive family. Religion, isolation, and allegedly abuse are parts of that. Another part may be his wealth. Fans believe that he has a strategy to keep his married children from straying too far. Are fans right? Is he bribing his adult children to stay close to home in Arkansas? As we all know, Jim Bob’s grand design for humanity involves women not working except as obedient wives, dutiful mothers, and reality stars. In this economy, after a couple of decades of wage stagnation, supporting a massive family of children on only one income can be positively brutal. But fans think that they know how married Duggar children remain afloat despite the expenses of life. It’s more than just asking daddy — sorry, their father and former owner — for a handout. They suspect that he uses the money to control them. Specifically, to control where they live. Let’s look at a few examples. We’ll start, of course, with the worst of the batch. By the worst, we of course mean Josh Duggar, whose recent return to social media did not go over well. When Josh Duggar married Anna, Jim Bob rewarded that ill-fated (and yet still enduring) union. Josh and Anna moved into a house in Fayetville that had belonged to Grandma Mary. That house was only 15 minutes by car from the Duggar compound. But Johs and Anna didn’t stay there forever. Josh got a job with the Family Research Council, which the Southern Poverty Law Center designates as a hate group , To do that job, he moved to Maryland. When news broke that Josh had molested 5 little girls , including his own sisters, that his family had covered it up, and that he had cheated on his wife, he lost his job. Josh and his family now live in Siloam Springs, which is about 20 minutes away from Jim Bob. Now, we know that there isn’t the clearest connection between Jim Bob and their move back home. Maybe Josh wanted to be around the only people who wanted anything to do with him — which happens to include a few of his former victims. But Jill was the next to get married. She tied the knot with notorious homophobe Derick Dillard in 2014. After they were married, Jim Bob allowed them to reside in his 4,000 square foot, 4-bedroom $1.5 million “mini-mansion” property. Many fans believed that this “gift” may have been intended as a leash to keep the couple close to home. It is unclear if they had to pay rent or not, though Derick has implied that they did. Now that they have returned from their misadventurous mission trip in South America, they are living closer to where Derick went to school. Jessa Duggar and Ben Seewald have lived in the Fayetville home that was once inhabited by Josh and Anna. In fact, Jim bob surprised Jessa and Ben by renovating the property while they were on their honeymoon. They must have been happy with it, because they have lived there for the past three-and-a-half years. Ultimately, they ended up paying Grandma Mary just one dollar for the home. (So that’s how Millennials can save up to buy a house — just have rich relatives who give one away!) Not everyone seems to live on Jim Bob’s dime, however. Joy-Anna Duggar and Austin Forsyth lived in an RV, if you can imagine … but only while a property that Austin already owned was rennovated. When Gideon was born, they went ahead and moved in, even though the house remained a fixer-upper. In the mean time, 28-year-old John David, 28-year-old Jana, and 18-year-old Jason are already homeowners … but Jim Bob does not permit them to live away from “home” until they are married. Not everyone is a denizen of Arkansas, however. Jinger Duggar and Jeremy Vuolo have put down roots in Texas. So … are fans right? We would never accuse Jim Bob of being a nice person or a good parent, but it sounds like he provides his married children with homes when they need them. He might use any financial support as a means of control, but he uses all kinds of methods to control his family. Nothing about the real estate uses strikes us as particularly devious or unusual for a family with the means that the Duggars possess. But … we never know what conversations take place behind the scenes. Fans may still be right. The Duggars don’t talk about money that much, but they definitely care about it. View Slideshow: Duggar Family: Their Secret to Raking in Millions on the Side Revealed

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Lauren Bushnell: Ben Higgins Was a Disaster I Should Have Seen Coming

It’s been a little over a year since Lauren Bushnell and Ben Higgins broke up . While Ben left The Bachelor: Winter Games in tears not too long ago, Lauren is opening up about what it was really like leading up to and after her engagement to him. In particular, she’s revealing more than ever about her misgivings about their one-season spin-off. Speaking on Reality Steve ‘s latest podcast , Lauren Bushnell describes exactly what it’s like in the hours leading up to the filming of a The   Bachelor finale. “There’s so much doubt in your mind.” It makes sense. When you’re part of the final three, it must all become so real. A fun reality opportunity to get your 15 minutes of fame could set the course of your entire life. “And I remember waking up that morning and I kind of had an idea that I was possibly going to get engaged and I remember having so much anxiety about it.” That is very natural. “Looking back, I don’t know if that was my gut being like, wait, timing-wise, this is too rushed or what.” Anxiety is a mysterious mistress who comes to us for good reason … and for no reason at all. “But I remember being really anxious that morning to the point where like I kind of snapped at my producer, which I had never done.” Oh, yikes! “We were super-close and good friends.” She says that she needed some isolation during which to psych herself up for going on camera and for the man who had told her “I love you” to very possibly propose. “I remember locking myself in the bathroom and being so overwhelmed and anxious.” She wonders if she subconsciously realized that it would not end well. “Now looking back, I wonder if it was my gut being like, this isn’t the right timing. You guys need more time.” Or maybe she just had a case of the jitters. “I don’t know. Who knows?” And speaking of Lauren’s reality career and anxiety, remember her short-lived spin-off with Ben? Lauren & Ben: Happily Ever After? “Obviously we had lots of talks and by no means was my arm twisted to force me to do anything.” That said … she has always said that embarking on yet another reality series doomed them , even though it was not the only issue. “At the end of the day, I made my own decision.” Remember, they moved to Denver — where Ben had a job, friends, and family. Lauren had … nothing. Not even time with her fiance, thanks to the constant presence of cameras. “But I remember initially the show was supposed to be about Ben running for office.” Oh boy. “He wanted to get into politics.” This was not how Lauren had seen her life going at all. “And not only did I not want to do a reality show, but I also really didn’t want my life to be a politician’s fiancée or wife or whatever.” Remember how, just a few days after their breakup, Ben Higgins broke his silence and talked about their breakup? Lauren sure does. “I just don’t think you should ever use or let anyone around you use a breakup or a tough situation or actual personal feelings or personal life to promote something or benefit off something or profit off something.” Ben used that to garner interest for his radio show. “It just makes me feel uncomfortable…” Very understandable. Especially since doing so allowed Ben to define the story in people’s minds. “I was automatically kind of the bad guy and he was kind of the victim so that was a hard pill to swallow.” That sounds so unfair. “But at the end of the day, I’m glad I kept true to who I was…” Lauren has obviously opened up about their life together — and what went wrong. But she took her time. More than Ben did, anyway. “I just don’t think I’d necessarily talk about those things right away.” Lauren also addresses whether, in some alternate timeline in which Ben proposed to JoJo Fletcher instead of to her, she would have accepted the role of leading lady on The Bachelorette . “That’s such a hard question. I don’t know.” That’s very honest. “Honestly, I think I’ve realized this especially as I’ve gotten older, I do not like all eyes on me.” But that doesn’t necessarily mean that she would have realized that at the time, right? “I don’t like all the attention to be on me. I would feel really weird having 20 guys competing for my attention and I think I would really, really struggle with that.” Ah, yes, every beautiful woman’s nightmare. (We tease — we totally understand her discomfort) View Slideshow: 33 Hottest Women of The Bachelor: Who’s #1?

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